Life Outside Yo!Pro Sucks

[Windy]

I haven't updated since October! Last I wrote, hot older guy at work was flirting with me buuuut it turned out he's a total user asshole. Found this out the hard way, of course, and now he won't talk to me. Siiiigh. Always with the awful men.

One of my closest friends is diabetic and has been pretty sick lately. The day before Thanksgiving, he was rushed to the hospital for the third time in a month, but this time was the worst ever. He almost died; they didn't think he would last the night. I've been so worried about him on top of all my other shit, and to make things crappier, he caught both pneumonia and MRSA while IN THE HOSPITAL. DAMNIT.

Anyway, he was in a coma the first two days and it was awful. Luckily he is slowly recovering, but needs to learn how to walk again and such. I'm just. Adghxhfvhh.   It never ends, you know?

Adventures in the Life of Me. Shit goes wrong! The end! Still miss you guys and karaoke, xoxo. Liana, are we cactus friends or flower friends. XD

[Kotone]

I posted abuot this a few days ago but it's gotten worse.

My best friend decided she hates me at the start of the month. Yesterday I spent nearly $100 on an apology gift. I went to her house today and she answered the door and said "I don't want it".

I left it there hoping she'd accept it. But I can't say I've ever felt more depressed in my life, it's worse then when my grandfather died, when my mum got cancer it's worse then anything that's ever happened to me.

[Farrah]

So yeah, my youtube account of the past ~5/6 years has officially been deleted, right after I hit 250 subscribers =/ Oh, they also disabled my email account that I've had since I was like, 9.

[Tomie]

On a diet, trying to eat healthy, yadda yadda yadda....


My mom bitches at me because I have to have 'special treatment' when it comes to what I eat when ever since my sister has been home we've had to cater to her pickiness.


And speaking of my sister...she constantly gives me flack for my diet...complaining a/b my having to eat differently (such a hypocrit) and getting on my case if I 'cheat'.  Like I had a cookie the other day and she was like "Oh...that looks heathly"...in a really mean, childish way.  My sister, who is a year and a half older than me >< 

It just sucks that I'm not getting any support from my family. 

[BakaPai]

^ Speaking of diets...
Ever since my relatives have come to visit, I've felt like I'm shit. My brother says the stupidest shit and doesn't think it's upsetting. But it is. We were having dinner tonight, I was actually in a happy mood, until the brother decided to announce that I've been 'piling it on'. This really upsetted me. Sure I thought I had a little bump, but I didn't think it was really an issue. That I didn't look fat through a mirror. But ever since he said, I've been feeling sick in the stomach. Everytime he's here, he has to say SOMETHING that'll cause me to cry in front of him. He doesn't even know how to deal with it.
Now I just ... don't want to eat as much as I use to. I seriously didn't think that my weight was an issue, but obviously, I've been delusional.

[kibats]

No, babe. What's obvious is that your brother is (or at least was treating you as though he is) a jerk.

I've had image issues my whole life, lots of girls here have. I get it. If you think you've gained a bump, and it didn't bother you before he said something...so what? Ups and downs happen, it's the end of the year which makes it a little more likely to gain. Be where you are comfortable. Don't feel bad about yourself because your brother says rude things. And whether he means to or not, it's not ok that he gets you so upset. Cut him off next time, or just excuse yourself and leave the room until he gets the message that you don't want to have that negativity on you. You looked in the mirror and liked what you saw. Keep that feeling. And don't let his clumsy attempts at humor put you in a dark place.

Take care.

[DC]

I was going to type this in the Emergency thread but I might as well put it here while I'm typing.  I will be on an indefinite Hiatus starting on the 4th until who knows when.  I'm getting my gallbladder removed.  You will probably still see me at the bottom of the forum because I'll be on my phone but I doubt I'll be posting or doing much else, just checking up because I'll probably be bored.  If my surgery goes well and I recover fast, I should be back here in 3-4 days at least.  If I don't recover fast it should take up to 10 days to fully heal to how I was before, so I should at least be back by the 14th.

Guh, I don't want to get surgery.  I keep on reading all of these stories of stuff that could go wrong XD

[Liana]

I READ THE ORIGINAL UNEDITED POST bb I got your back Surgery will be okay though!!! You go to sleep, wake up in a little pain but everyone waits on you hand and foot and you get to miss work. Win win as far as I'm concerned. If I had insurance I'd get surgery all the TIME.

[DC]

Thank you Liana <3 

See I don't really know what I'm worried about, I've had knee surgery before like 6 years ago and nothing went wrong.  And that was something where I have crutches for 3 weeks + physical therapy for 4 months after (and before the surgery too) + one year in a giant knee brace when I ran until it healed.  So this should be nothing, it's 10 days recovery time over however long it took my knee to fully heal.  I don't know I think I need to stop freaking out over everything XD

[Joel]

awreoijklnher

I feel like crap. Mostly because of the junk food that I've been eating lately, I guess. Idk. I feel really emotional for some reason to the point I want to cry. But I don't cry. Even when I want to cry, I don't because I feel like I don't deserve to cry. Does that make sense? Idk. I haven't cried since the last time I can remember. Actually, probably the Marley and Me movie. That movie literally fucked me up. Idk I am 21 years old (I was literally about to put down 20. I don't want to grow up) and I'm just blindly going through college and hoping that I'll be ok when I grow up-grow up. I just want to be NORMAL with NORMAL life. That's all I want. I don't want to be super rich and super famous. Normal is safe. safe is good. I just don't feel like any company would want me and me thinking this way won't get me anywhere. I WANT IRL FRIENDS AGAIN SO BAD. It's been 2 1/2 years already.
I'm fuckin pissed at my manager too. I've worked nearly EVERY SINGLE FUCKING WEEKEND EVER SINCE I STARTED WORKING HERE IN ARKANSAS. And I mean that in a quite LITERAL sense. During the school semester, I ask for it. I get that I really do. But when I open my availability from 3 days to 7. CAN'T I AT LEAST GET A SATURDAY OR A SUNDAY OFF. PLEASE. OTHER PEOPLE CAN WORK TOO. I deserve it. I FUCKING DESERVE IT OMG. I SWEAR TO GOD. I just want to stop being me and I want to be someone else who gets everything ever and doesn't have to kiss ass to get it. I kinda want to be like a Japanese drama and I want someone to LOVE ME-LOVE ME (MASSARA BURUU JIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINZU). I'm sick of love too. It's hopeleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeess. I've had a crush since JUNIOR HIGH IN HIGH SCHOOL AND I CAN'T LET IT GO. I CAN'T. THAT'S OVER 4 YEARS YOU GUYS I'M SICK OF IT.

UGH> I've taken one too many benedryal (wow you are no help auto-correct I don't know how to spell that shit). I need it to sleep though gotta work tomorrow in the morning. ON A SATURDAY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA Although I have learned recently that morning shifts (7-4) are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better than night shifts (1-10) despite having to get up super early.

I LOVE YOU GUYS. I REALLY DO. 

[BakaPai]

Late but, thanks! @kibats.

So now it's just our other relatives that are staying (brother and 10 year old niece), and it's driving us insane, not to mention, our wallets are getting empty. These guys ask simply for too much. I mean, they were SUPPOSE to be staying until today, the 13th... but no movement seems to be done...
The brother was joking at the beginning that they might stay another two weeks because he'll get paid by then to pay for a return ... This wasn't a "hey is it okay if we stay longer?" it was more "yeah, we're staying longer "
These people are getting harder to tolerate. The brother acts annoying to annoy other people and he gets up around 12 oclock every day. The niece, borrows things from me without asking, hogs the tv - only playing iCarly for the 40th time, and smothers my dogs. She doesn't even understand things properly. If I'm watching something on tv (for a freakin change) she goes "not this again. AUGH" ... wut.. you haven't even seen this... you don't even know what this is... why do you exaggerate over everything?
Not to mention her mothers side of the family (cheatingexwifewhodoesdrugs) are very particular about keeping her hair freakin long. It's TOO long. I had a long hair once, but you know what? I actually took care of it. And I feel sorry for her because it gets in her way all the time. When we first saw her, her grandma made a hint of "no cutting her hair now " .. just because last time we visited (years ago), we gave her a trim. A TRIM for godsake.
Anyway.
It's inconvieniant that they can just ... decide to stay here for an extra two weeks. Mum starts work soon and she's disappointed that she couldn't have a few days rest from no more relatives about. They're bleeding us dry. I can't even record or mix because the equipment is where the niece is occupying.

[kibats]

Trying to wrap up a car claim, there's a med bill they don't want to pay and it's valid. But an issue there and a lack of paper trail due to an ex-manager who quit for lost wages = me missing out on some money. Also, all these bills and near collection notices? Stress.

Oh, and my student loan was denied because I have huge debt - that I'm not aware of, so I have to investigate and see what THAT surprise is since all my cards are paid off barring a brand new one I just got to establish rotating credit. I have a good credit score. What's the big issue they found now? I owe school over a grand. Then need 2.5 or so more to pay for classes through graduation. I graduate in May. It's kind of a time sensitive deal, here. Also stress.

Next week = 6 days on, week after = 5, work's in inventory. Right in the middle of finals. I'm basically on call. At a STORE. So. That's gonna go well. I'm already at B- for each class. I'm just so freaking stressed. At least that's money.

[BakaPai]

... I'm starting to worry about my friend's boyfriend. Lately, he's been sending me txts - he apologised for having dream that I killed my friend and he killed me one night. And just then I got a "I'm sorry I wasn't very talkative, that was rude. I was selfish and I don't want that on my concious" when he and my friend dropped by... wut. It's kind of making me uncomfortable.

Plus, apparently they had been talking about me. (oddly enough when I was over my friend's house, the boyfriend let me play around with his phone and I stumbled on messages) My friend saying something like "I was just angry that you were talking about her as if she was a piece of meat." and him replying with something like "I just want to let you know I'm not attracted to her. Besides if we were to do it, I wouldn't be able to look at her the same again"
... ... ... ... have these two been talking about having a threesome with me O_o ... cuz... that ain't happening. Maybe the fact that I'm a virgin is what has them both facinated or something :S

[Kapparin]

I have just over six weeks to have my passport (which I JUST realized is missing and reapplied for yesterday) reissued, turn around and send it to the Japanese consulate in Chicago to get my visa, and be in Tokyo for training.

I love it when something I was SO prepared for falls to shit. The only lucky part of this situation is that I realized my passport issue now and not in a couple weeks. I literally will be riding the line with this, and I'm paying out the ass to make it even happen, which of course is cutting into the approx $6,500 I need to bring with me, of which I only have half to begin with. Not to mention the $1,000 plane ticket I need to book but can't because I don't have my placement yet, which has its' price going up by the day. GODDDD PLEASE JUST KILL ME NOW. I need a hell of a Christmas kiseki to happen to survive the next few months.

Japan. You and I are not speaking right now.


P.S. On the upside, the community of people I've found on Facebook and through my personal interview (people who are all going over at the same time) are some of the most amazing and supportive people ever. It's really really good to be able to go through this with other people and I find myself stalking the FB group we made just about every 15 minutes as everyone helps each other out, cheers for one another, and just hangs out and chats about whatever. With them around, I know I'm going to have the most amazing time and that everything is going to be as stress-free as such a stressful journey possibly can be and that when I get there I've already got this huge group of close friends. I love them so much, I can't even. (But Tokyo, hurry up and give me my placement so I can book a flight over with the people I interviewed with!)

[Tomie]

Trying to find a job.  Every reputable site I go to never has any jobs that I'm interested in.  Usually it's either something technical, something labor-related, or a managerial position. Or if I'm interested I don't have the experience.  Or I need to join the army. 

So, I decided to look on craigslist.  I don't entirely trust cragslist for job searching...but I'm desperate.  I find a job for a Dog Day Care in my area. I think "Great! I have experience working with dogs.  Hell, I've owned dogs and taken care of other people's dogs.  I've even worked with packs of dogs before!"

Their ad says "Do you have experience working with dogs? (Owning a dog or taking care of a neighbor's or friends dog does not count as experience)."

Why the hell not? This job requires you to walk, feed, play with, and clean up after dogs.  Also occasionally administer medication.  There might also be some bathing in there too.  Now, I know just because I can make a fucking awesome Chicken a l'orange that doesn't mean I'm cut out to be a chef.  However, I do think having personal experience should easily translate in this case.

The ability to scoop the poop of the dogs who are boarded at this day care isn't any different than the ability to scoop the poop of a neighbor's dog.  If it is...well, I'm then I'm highly interested in their special new poop-scooping methods that one clearly needs professional experience and training for. ><